“Finding Happiness”… When you read it like that… it just sounds so easy. It almost sounds like you could discover it accidentally, while folding the washing or walking the dog. As if you lost it in the first place… I kind of buy into the whole “you cant know happiness unless you have felt sadness” […]Read more "Finding happiness, living with anxiety"
Yes I have been suicidal and yes I have tried to end my life… a couple of times. I guess there have been a few times in my life where everything has overwhelmed me so much… to the point beyond rational thinking. That would be the moment that the idea begins… the idea that maybe the […]Read more "The time I tried to end myself"
Today I had to go to a work meeting… I already knew that I was going to have “one of those days” today. I woke up with my anxiety at level 7 out of a possible 10 (10 being the worst I could ever feel). I realize that I don’t care about any of the work stuff, […]Read more "Work Meetings and Medication"
Dream loop – no matter which way I go I always end up back where I don’t want to beRead more "Coffin Room Dream"
My dog… I had a beautiful dog when I was a child. She was a purebred Basset Hound and I loved her very much. She was my first companion and we would go everywhere together. My earliest memory is of her, when I was around 3 years of age. We lived in a small town […]Read more "Earliest Memory"
The worst part of losing myself in an anxious situation is that once its over and I have returned to myself I now get to spend the next few hours reminding myself just how stupid I looked and sounded…Read more "Story one… how I feel right now"